So here I am waiting sick from allergies to go to the little family hotel where we will be staying while my grandpa is in the hospital. I still can not believe that a week ago I got the infamous text message. My grandpa the only true father figure I have ever had in my life needs triple by pass surgery. He was possibly days or a week away from having a massive fatal heart attack. All I wanted was to go home but there I was stuck in Dallas at a stupid concert. Nick and I spent about $120 dollars on tickets, drove there and everything and now I did not want to be anywhere but at the hospital back home.
I was getting to see some of my favorite bands two of them for the very first time and there was no way to enjoy it. I sucked it up through Disturbed but was so happy to be in the car and could not get home fast enough. Tears were streaming down my face because my family could be losing it’s rock. How does that happen? How do things like this fucking happen?
Here I am a whole week later and now it is ok to do the surgery he has been doing well and everyone is very positive. I am trying to be but I would be lying if I did not say that I was very very scared.
So on to get up at 5:30 tomorrow morning and see what god brings me. God bring me strength bring my whole family strength. I am praying to you.
10 Don’t you be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness.
13 I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me.
After all of this happening in my life I have realized that my faith in god gives me the strength I need to deal with the stresses in my life. My life has been so smooth since I called on god back in december to re-enter my heart. Back to church I go. I have definitely been proven to that there has been something missing in my life and finally I have found it.